I'm constantly worrying about the future

from my experience to yours

If I had a best friend 3 to 4 years ago I would’ve sent them this voice message:

„Hey, I don’t know what’s going on! Whenever we talk about our futures in school and how we want to live one day, my heart cramps. It feels as if it is turning in and as if it wants to hide. I feel annoyed and want to change the subject.

I can already feel that I’m next… ‘So… how do you imagine your life?’, a classmate asks me. And I get nervous, what the hell am I supposed to answer now??? I know what they want to hear is ‘Oh, I’d love to work in a job that gives me financial stability, so that I can enjoy life in my time off. And then eventually, maybe a house and kids.’

But that’s not at all what I really want! But then again, I don’t really know what I want, so what do I say???

I say: ‘Erm… well, I don’t really know to be honest. I don’t have such a clear vision of my life like you guys have.’ And now they look at me with pity. As if I was crazy for not having an idea. They don’t understand me, that’s clear as day.

And that’s okay in a way, but it still doesn’t cure the thirst I have. The thirst for live. Damn! I’m 22. I don’t want to be thinking about settling down. I haven’t even lived! I just got out of school, I don’t want to have a secure job and an apartment and a car. Those things only cost me money! And they trap me in a town or a village. I don’t want that!!

But what do I want??? I just don’t know! AAAAH! This is soo frustrating!! What can I do?? Please help me?!?”

cut to...

2021.

Present day.

I create my own joy and job, which I enjoy. My family supports me in what I do. The friends that never understood me are no longer in my life. I meet new people all the time who are so inspiring and encouraging of my path. I feel stable. I know where to go.

How did I do that?

I dove deep and figured it out. I assessed where I was at the moment and where I wanted to be. I dreamed big and then reality-checked it. I looked into the future and envisioned myself – how will I carry myself, where will I wake up, what will I do, what will I eat & how will I live.

And then I looked at all the things that scared me, all the terrifying things like the fear of other people’s judgement and so much more and I moved through it, I still am moving through it. I simply began. And now it is your turn.

Because think of it like this: By next summer, do you still want to have awkward conversations with your environment or do you want to have a better grasp and feel stronger in life?

You have to invest, it requires effort. That’s just how it is. And all it comes down to is a decision you make.

Just for a moment I invite you to think of your life in 10 second chapters. Imagine you can choose newly every 10 seconds. If that were the case, then why not choose to focus on your future for a bit, and if you notice that it’s not for you and you want to stay confused and insecure, then you can choose that. Because every 10 seconds you get to choose.

The courses I have developed on yllispace.com are all 100% based on my own experience. Everything that’s in all of the 3 courses that you can choose from, is what I did. And all of it, all of the tools, all of the knowledge, will empower and enable you to live the freedom that you choose. And you will finally be able to truly flourish in life, because you’ll be creating space for yourself. And it will happen so naturally that after a while you’ll look back and be like: “Wow! I didn’t even realize I did that!”.

Lots of love to you,
Patricia